Thursday, September 16, 2010

Voices

5 years ago:
I don't know what happened, I was driving on the highway, when suddenly I drove into the forest, and the forest almost welcomed me. My truck was pulled under the roots and thats where its been sitting ever since. I can move in the cab, but theres nothing in here that can help me. My flashlight battery went out a few hours ago, but I needed new ones anyways. My grandkids kept telling me to 'get a cellular', maybe I actually should have, I never did get one, but in a situation like this it really would have helped. I'm not hungry, which is the odd part, I see my watch tick past the hours but thats all it really is doing. I hear, voices, sometimes, but they're only in my head. I've heard them before, when I was getting sugary done on my arm, all the hallucination stuff is coming again. I can live through them, its not that bad.

4 years ago:
The voices... are not real... but ... they seem real.... I can move .... sometimes.... it seems like... I get out .... of my truck..... and I float.... away..... into nothing..... its peaceful..... I'm happy.... Then it seems.... that I wake up.... and I can hear.... my grandkids.... telling me to ... hold on... but hold on.... to what? .... Claire is here.... she's here with me..... she tells me she's waiting.... for me... in heaven... but what is heaven? .... Claire died years ago.... before the grandkids..... where could she be?.... She says not to lose .... my mind.... but how can I.... lose my mind.... when it's already lost?

3 years ago:
There's only a picture now in my mind, of an aging woman. But I don't care. She's not here, so I don't care. There are little children too, but I don't care anymore about them.
When I think of them, it gives me a feeling of hunger... where my belly used to be.
Eventually though, I'm going to have to eat.

2 years ago:
We live together. We eat together. We are happy here. The days seem shorter. It's almost spring. We can feel the earth coming alive. We like it when spring is here. Spring means there is change. Spring means better chances of food.

1 year ago:
We are stronger now. We can move more. We spread more. We move ourselves to where they are. We will win this fight. We can find them. We can have them. We can feed on them. No longer will we suffer. No longer will they roam. We will be peaceful. We will win. We will feed.

Present Day:
We have won. We have more to keep us alive. We have grown. We have shown our strengh. We can win. We can feed. We can feed more. More means we will win. There is no hope for them. We have won. We have won.

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